beachtastic sawfshots

inspired to strive v. fall out for a lie

Outside View pulled from a Lapse of Time

Changing to be perfect is too un- natural ... genuine generativity through a true person is real.

When I grow up... I want to be an amazing advertiser.

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im all visual.

Property of _________.

At the end of the day, all you have is yourself. Keep that in mind.

As human beings, we find different ways in life to give our lives purpose. We give back, stay active, and join organizations, jobs, and clubs to keep ourselves well-rounded people. In that process, it is key to know and understand that Being a person connotates having values, beliefs, and a sense of personal perspective on Everything. And of course, sometimes the processes of life doesn't always hand us our dream job and picture perfect club to belong to. There will be times, however, wherein we do things "just for the mortgage" (Thank You for Smoking) without any other incentive than that. Considering that, we must be careful and sensitive to the fact that sometimes when life shifts, we lose ourselves. So no matter where you go, who you associate yourselves with, or what you end up doing in long run of life, we must stay true to who we really are. And it is understandable, that we are always on the journey to find out exactly who we are, but we all have a foundation, base, character, and personality that should always stay with us no matter what. My purpose isn't to downplay any groups of friends, pretigious non-profit organizations, or high paying executive jobs, it is to remind everyone to still be people: to have feelings, be vulnerable, be unsure, but to be whoever we are minus the titles, minus the popular posse, and minus the wealth. We're made to be different, and it IS our job to interact with the universe and participate in its activities, but never give yourself away to something that requires you to change, to be tweaked, or to live in a different skin. We change for ourselves and ourselves only ...because we belong to us.

ps image is really random and irrelevant.

.No Vacancy.

There is only room for innovation and creativity to breathe. So fuck the norm, forget conformity, and quit bullshittin'. We come in different colors for a reason... and it's not to be color coded.

simply A Beautiful Beginning.

I'd like to think that the way I carry myself reflects the person I really am. I always care and think of the long run, make sure I'm at my best (or at least warn people when I am at my worst), dress appropriately, speak eloquently of what I know, and am enthusiastic to learn everything that I do not. I've been called a "mother" by many people for this reason: I LIVE to stimulate life and remind as many people as I can that there's always a life worth living. I take care of people, dress them up, tell them the beautiful side of a horrifying story, and remind everyone that they are always loved to prove that their existence in this world makes a difference (and a great difference in my life mind that.) Today, September 25,2008 at 12:15pm I opened this letter:

The Delta Sigma chapter of the Co-Ed, International, Business Professional Fraternity, DELTA SIGMA PI, extended a bid to me as a result of my "commitment to business studies,and professionalism". My person has paid off; the "bros" of DSP are giving me a chance not to be a brother of Delta Sigma Pi, but to be me, to be my person and have an international business fraternity by my side to support me, inspire me, and help me live that better life. HARD WORK PAYS OFF and eventually gives you that chance to continue your life with a new BEAUTIFUL BEGINNING.

FIN

SCREAMING FOR LIFE

hell week.

i dont want to talk.

i dont want to breathe.

but i want to get through this.

fyi: be the friend that you need in your life, and they'll come to you

I wish I could stare at Art all day...

ART IS MY THERAPY AND DRUG.

Full Plate

What's in a week?

1. study guide 4 chapters International Business

2. study guide 3 chapters Accounting

3. INBA & ACCT midterms #1

4. Rush week Delta Sigma Pi (business frat)

5. Get battery fixed for Carlitos

6. Birthday dindin for Carissa- Lala's + bboy status party

7. HW HW HW

8. Get started on Architecture/MRKT/Tour "life or death" project

9. recover from Nocturnal

10. Groceries

11. Clean apt again and again and again

12. Eat

13. Sleep

14. Breathe

15. Stay Alive

beh weev in majik

"Those that believe in others, inspire others to believe in them." (unknown)

dress your life up

I go to class in sweats, sometimes. Philosophy 7-9pm was another story: senior girl at LMU had to take it to another level. Amidst all the preppy, eclectic, artsy, hippie, athletic, and ghetto kids at LMU, I don't mind the stylistic diversity that roams around me. But let me tell you, this bitch, no this bitch decided to stumble into class approx 14 minutes late, in straight up boxers, this dirty hoody she wears every time with her hood still on, house slippers, coffee in her hand, and a ripped piece of notebook paper brought especially for notes. She then just has to make it more awkward when she cuts off the teacher by raising her hand and blurting out, "Is that gonna be on the test?" Like dub tee eff! She just another person that takes the phrase "I don't give a fuck to a whole other level". And honestly, I bum it A LOT of times... but I never let it bring down my life. So its not about wearing that one of a kind dress from Italy, glidding around campus in your Christian Louboutins, or swinging around your LV oversized tote..... it's about still caring about your life, and living through your attitude. Which means: we can bum it when we oversleep, pass on the make-up on lazy sundays, and definitely forget the primping on finals week, but dress up once in a while, so you can remember to pamper yourself  because you deserve it, because you're still alive and still care about who you are and because you know that you're the baddest bitch.

Not for them. For YOU.

who are you?

sometimes all you need is that one push off the cliff....

...to find out you can fly.

better

and

stronger.

                         

I went to church after not going the entire summer and it made me think:

Do I have to ask God to come back into my life, or was he always there?

and I looked back at my summer and couldn't help but feel blessed. I'm on the right track, I've been ridiculous happy, and still feel Him right there beside me. He was there.

Scripture says Jesus said "who do you say I am"... but who do people say I am, or you are?

What I hope is that I am still me, that people see my genuinity, my honesty, and care even when I do bullshit sometimes... I am me no matter what. I am still that little girl.

simply healthy love at its finest.

simply happy.

simply comforted.

simply trusted.

simply fun.

simply us.

It's the simple things that keep you here with me; we're high on that Healthy Love.

wake up

im ready... just bring it on already.

the sunset. simply happy.

nite nite, sleep tight

The Foetus (41%):
Those who curl up in the foetus position are described as tough on the outside but sensitive at heart. They may be shy when they first meet somebody, but soon relax. Mostly women.
Log (15%):
Lying on your side with both arms down by your side. These sleepers are easy going, social people who like being part of the in-crowd, and who are trusting of strangers. However, they may be gullible.
The yearner (13%):
People who sleep on their side with both arms out in front are said to have an open nature, but can be suspicious, cynical. They are slow to make up their minds, but once they have taken a decision, they are unlikely ever to change it.
Soldier (8%):
Lying on your back with both arms pinned to your sides. People who sleep in this position are generally quiet and reserved. They don't like a fuss, but set themselves and others high standards.
Freefall (7%):
Lying on your front with your hands around the pillow, and your head turned to one side. Often gregarious and brash people, but can be nervy and thin-skinned underneath, and don't like criticism, or extreme situations.
Starfish (5%):
Lying on your back with both arms up around the pillow. These sleepers make good friends because they are always ready to listen to others, and offer help when needed. They generally don't like to be the centre of attention.

dear creepers...

Against the Pressure

Ice Skating, fencing, boxing, tennis, and gymnastics... Individual Sports... enough said. All alone you and the game, no one else to depend on but you. Five days a week, six hours a day, thirty minute warm up, four routines/ four events, one hour conditioning, half an hour stretch, three water breaks, and eight years of joy, sweat, and blood between me and the game. The pressure was so intense I can see my heart beat through the shiny leotard, feel my stomach clench into a rock, and hear my nerves rattle until a tear sheds. When it's just you and the game, it engulfs your life... not that you don't have the time to yourself, but when you're all alone you can't help but think, breathe, and sweat gymnastics. South Bay Gymnastics was my home, Chris, Jerry, and Paola were my parents and heroes, and gymnastics was my drug for life. Seven levels passed, one state competition, one pinch nerve, five hundred blisters, one broken elbow and wrist, fifty moments of defeat, a hundred of glory, and five years later, I live no regrets.... just memories of pride.

butterfly heart beats.